My Own World

So some say that I am always in my own world. Some say I am always listening to music and always talking about whats on the radio, rather than listening and participating in the conversation at hand. I agree with these people, I do live in my own world.

Here's why..

Nothing about my life is for sure. Nothing about my life is stable. Except Jehovah, my life is more than a roller coaster. You may think that I am crabby a lot, but if you could understand the pain that I feel about it all.. I don't like to show weakness.. So you put your head up, grin and bare it.

Besides Jehovah, my music is the only thing I have. Its the only way for me to pretend I have this other life. Where something else besides my insanity consumes it. My music is for sure. It never goes away. It never changes its lyrics. Its never shocking. It never lets you down. Its so important to me.

Music can change your emotions faster than anything I have ever experienced! They help your forgive. They help you heal. They help you live. And the best part is.. a song can be about what ever you need it to be about. A song captures moments and feelings. It captures memories and pictures! When I play my songs.. I don't just hear music. I see moments. I feel familiar emotions. The pictures play back in my head to the song which captured those moments and feelings you forget you ever had.

It saves me everyday. 

And that's why I live in my own world. Because mine is much better than the real one.

Lynz